Strange feeling
It's strange to be live sometimes. I remember in school when we would read history I would sit and wonder - what was it like to be there? What was it like to be alive when great empires were in decline? What was it like to be around when something, like an entire culture, was swallowed by another, becoming hidden nuances in the larger culture?

Now I know. It's such a strange feeling. An odd feeling to know that no matter what I do, there are hundreds of languages that will be dead before I die. Even if they are recorded, saved on paper, they will be dead. Language is a dynamic, living thing that helps people not only express themselves but understand, know,remember their cultural identity. Everyday languages get closer to death or even die, many never recorded. What does that mean?

Languages are not the only things we, humans, will have to say farewell to. Cultural practices are not the only thing we are saying goodbye to...we may say goodbye to Polar Bears...Polar Bears. Mammals, especially predators are at high risk.

These things are sad. I study cultures that will change so much they will no longer be and send money and educate people about the loss of animals. It's strange though. It's so odd to really sit and think.

Culture is dynamic. Culture is people. Culture was meant to change just as people were meant to change. I know I should see this path, their change but I feel this sadness. This want for these languages, rituals, foods to survive. I argue with myself and wonder if that's right or wrong. I normally come to the conclusion that it just is but that is difficult to accept.

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Motorcycle
I adore my boyfriend. Really I do but goodness! If I have to watch/read him go on and on about this bike another day I might go crazy....it's all he talks about on AIM and when Ba is around... I feel bad because I really am happy that he has this thing and that it's totally battery thus very eco friendly and such but ah!
I'm not sure if the bike or his work is worse...I don't really understand either of them. I seem to hold my own better with Schrödinger's cat and other theory based things. The bike is just him talking to himself...more a form a masturbation now that I think about it...hmmmmmmmmm

Listening to old Disney songs is crazy. Hayley Mills is singing about how women catch a beau. Oh my....

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New Panties
I need new panties.
I am so in love with Anderson Cooper. I can't even watch Anderson 360 without thinking everything he says is so brilliant and coming out of the most beautiful mouth I've ever seen without just wanting to jump on him! Brilliant. Motivated. Outdoorsy. Comes from the Vandys. I adore the man.
Growl.

Interesting move to bring a woman to the VP. To bad she's anti-women's rights. To bad she's a total nut job?

Wish Obama were stronger.
Wish Biden were a young woman.
I love Biden.
Wish someone would actually stand up though and say something real. You know, actually start a revolution.
Sigh.

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P.S. Pope- New Saint from new sin?
A new sin?!
http://green.yahoo.com/news/nm/20080310/hl_nm/pope_sins_dc.html

Does this make Captain Planet a saint?

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TN Shitheads.
http://www.tennessean.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20070214/NEWS02/70214011/1001/NEWS

Lawmaker wants Tenn. to issue death certificates for abortions

By ERIK SCHELZIG
Associated Press


NASHVILLE, Tenn. (AP) -- Tennessee would collect death certificates for aborted fetuses under a bill introduced in the General Assembly.

Rep. Stacey Campfield said his bill would provide a way to track how many abortions are performed in Tennessee. The measure would also likely create public records on which women are having abortions.




"All these people who say they are pro-life -- at least we would see how many lives are being ended out there by abortions," said Campfield, R-Knoxville.

The measure would give abortion providers 10 days following an "induced termination of a pregnancy" to file a death certificate with the state Office of Vital Records.

"Hopefully we'll be able to get a little information out of this," Campfield said.
Campfield acknowledged his bill might have a hard time making it through the Democratic-controlled House. But the Republican-controlled Senate "will probably pass it," he said.

House Judiciary Chairman Rob Briley, D-Nashville, called Campfield's proposal "the most preposterous bill I've seen in eight years in the Legislature."

"I would anticipate that there are some serious legal problems with trying to issue death certificates to unborn fetuses, whether they be aborted or not," Briley said.

"It is totally inconsistent with everything the law contemplates as it relates to anything close to that subject," he said. "It's so far out there, it's hard for me to comment."

Tennessee law already requires abortions to be reported to the Office of Vital Records, though the identities of women having abortions are not included in the reports. Death certificates require identifying information like Social Security numbers.

The anti-abortion group Tennessee Right to Life has not yet taken a position on the death certificate bill, said spokeswoman Myra Simons.

"It's a little too early to say whether we will support it," she said, but added that the organization applauds the sponsors' efforts to "draw attention to the way abortion is handled in Tennessee.

Officials with Planned Parenthood didn't immediately return calls seeking reaction.

The number of abortions reported to the Office of Vital Records is already publicly available, a Health Department spokeswoman said. Tennessee also collects records -- but not death certificates _ for the deaths of a fetus weighing about 1 pound or after twenty-two weeks of gestation.

Campfield said he's not aware of similar proposals being introduced in other states. Still, he said, it's worth the attempt.

"The life issue is very important, it's always been very important to me," he said. "And we've really hit a stone wall as far as any sort of (anti-abortion) legislation moving."

Briley was less charitable about Campfield's proposal.

"It's a huge waste of taxpayer money for us to even be contemplating it," he said.

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haha
I didn't fix it. This is rather funny. I adore Pink. It's almost red but without all the yang, which I'm trying to calm down. Yup, Pink is amazing. I don't know what the orange is all about though...not a big fan of that color.

You scored as Pink. Pink represents the love for youth and this describes you very well. You have never taken life seriously and do not intend to. Instead you want to see where it leads you and just want to go with the flow. You love flirting, having fun and making the most of everything. </td> Pink 100% White 94% Orange 89% Purple 89% Red 83% Green 56% Yellow 55% Black 50% Blue 33% Which Colour Represents You??? created with QuizFarm.com

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wow
So Jessica just saved the day.
Wow.

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FUCK YEAH!

So I totally walked away. I said no more. We tried to be friends but then she can't doit and I'm not strong enough to fend her off every time I see her. Plus, I don't want to. I shouldn't have to. I'm way to good for that. I'm happy. I'm done.
I also have a date! haha This girl just thinks I'm pretty much amazing and asked me to a movie so I'm going to dress up tomorrow night and go after my exams!! YEAH! 
I'm so happy. Sweet. Life is good. Love love.

Oh, and I talked Lu...chattanooga Lu and he's so lost. I'm sorry for him. He is so lost and sad and asked me when I'm coming "home" but the south is no longer my home. My roots are in the south but my home will prob never be there again. I was meant for the West. I was made for the culture away from the south right now. love love. 
I miss everyone. I love everyone. 
Jesse the tattoo artist is drawing something up for me...he REALLY wants to tattoo me. He said he wants to draw up a powerful, blue, hindi goddess for me that gives off the power that is me! haha he is so sweet. I asked him to marry me tonight. he said he will when he's 37 or so and owns a tattoo shop and we can travel but still have money coming in. haha Our souls are entertwined. it's amazing. And ah,yeah, p.s. I can't spell. 
LOVE YOU!!!!!!!

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I adore my girlfriend. She's amazing. I'm going to go see her this weekend...she's sooo thoughtful and sweet and takes care of me when I'm sad.
Why did we think it was a bad idea to be together? Oh well. We think we're silly now because we were meant to be together...oh look, I feel hard again. Shocking I know.
BUT
If we were to break up it would suck but be ok. Yes, yes it would.
Baby gorillas! Twins. Amazing. Silverbacks? Maybe? I think so.
I have a test I need to be studiing for. It's MK's fault.
Yummy girls and bois.
I will have good food with my mother this weekend.
I will have wonderful laughs as well.
I will come back for Lizzy's party.
I will come back happy and revitailized (sp?)
ER night at Rach's? Hmmmm....who's going?

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It's not funny.

This Is My Life, Rated
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OK, so I totally remembered I'm a lesbian today! Just out of no where, I was like, fuck, I like girls, not this silly boy! It was really funny. I couldn't stop laughing and had to call Alicia. Plus I found a Woody Scholar that I have to become friends w/ then steal her girlfriend....or this other chick. They do yoga. LOVE! Talking to Jayna made me excited about going to back to ASC. There's nothing like bitching and complaining together that can make one want to return. I'm so happy today. Things are better. The vaction from hell just got me down I think. Happiness is a state of mind. I'm burning J&A's Summer Jams and am very excited about it. I get to see Em and JM when get home and can't wait. Then I'll move back to ATL and go to yoga w/ Rutu and walk all kinds of places and see good music and visit my Nashville loves.
This summer has been wonderful. I'm moved from place to place and feel as though no city or house is home - I'm home to me. It's this crazy amazing feeling I didn't know about. I thought I would be sad the day I stopped thinking of Chattanooga as home. I mean, in a way it is still home, but only when I'm there. Wherever I am I am home. Matieral shit doesn't make a home. It's that part of me inside that when I'm in rest wraps up in myself and joins all parts of me and make home. I just need myself to be home.

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~Put your playlist on random.
~Write down the first ten songs that come up, no matter how embarassing they are.

1. Ani DiFranco - Worthy
2. Ani DiFranco - Swan Dive
3. Anna & The King Soundtrack - "How Can I Not Love You?"
4. Bjork - One Day
5. Nora Jones - Turn Me On
6. Ani DiFranco - Cloud Blood
7. Dar Williams - Closer To Me
8. PortisHead - Sour Times
9. Indigo Girls - Hey Kind Friend
10. Tegan & Sara - LIving Room

I have a shit load of Ani on my computer right now...

Current Mood: "p

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Read and feel better
UP THE SLIPPERY SLOPE
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> We were almost there -- up one more hill on the lane leading to the retreat center and we'd be at the front door. It was late -- close to 10pm -- and we had been on the road for almost four hours. But the lights would be on and a fire lit, we knew, and there would be hot chocolate and cookies for the travelers. We'll have Compline at 10:05, I said, after you find your rooms. But just then the bus slowed to a stop, and began to slide backwards down the hill. Uh-oh. Ice.
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> The bus came to a stop against the guardrail; at least we were not in the river. The driver was good: he rocked us back and forth in just the right way, but we attained no purchase on the slick incline. Attained none, and would attain none, it soon became clear. Robin was the first one off the bus. It's really slick, she said.
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> I was the second one off, and fell down fairly quickly after my descent; Robin was right. It was treacherous. I slid gently downhill a few feet before coming to rest in the snow along the side of the road. So if you kept to the margin of the lane, where the snow was, you could get a little traction. Enough to make some progress up the hill.
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> And so the women began the climb. Women who walked with canes. Women wearing the wrong shoes. Old women and young women. Younger ones stationed themselves along the way and handed along the less sure-footed to one another, hand to hand. Very soon, headlights from the conference center's van appeared, and soon the transport was underway. When all the people were off the bus, it was time for the luggage, another hand-to-hand relay.
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> Is there anything women cannot do? I asked someone rhetorically. Nope, she said. Nothing. We can do anything. And that was exactly how we felt: capable, resourceful. Strong. Our misfortune was fun. It was an adventure.
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> So misfortune can be fun, in the end. In retrospect. If you come out of it all right. It gives you a fresh respect for your own powers. It forces you to think outside the box, and rewards you for it. You feel brave, competent. A survivor.
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> And if it does not? If your best effort, your bravest risk is not crowned with success? If you are injured, or see the injury of another, and are powerless to prevent it? Then your adventure goes suddenly quiet. Now there is no laughter. You walk carefully into the darkness in silence, one foot on snow and one foot on a sheet of ice, picking your way with dread. Each step fills your throat with fear, and it arcs through your body like an electrical current. Quickly the world becomes large and you become very small; quickly your former courage seems foolish bravado. Is there anything we can't do? What a stupid thing to say, you think now. You no longer tempt grim chance by asking such a question. What can you have been thinking?
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> Is there anything we can't do? Yes, there are some things. Many things. But there are some we can, even when we are afraid, even when our throats are filled with dread. The brave are not without fear. They are simply the ones who find a way to act despite their fear. But I'm afraid! a child inside us wails in terror. Maybe so, we say, taking the child's hand, but keep one foot in the snow and let's walk.

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hmmmm....

I love my friends. All of you.

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It's about time...
I finally changed my pic!!! Yeah! A girl I used to know made the other one and where it I used to like it and it was good for the time, it doesn't fit me now at all and I rather dislike it. I didn't want to take the time to make a new pic...not that I knew how to...finally I discovered photoshop on this computer and made some new pics...Tegan & Sara (yummy...), devil duck (pink rocks my world almost as much as red) and then the phoenix, growl, yes, all are good reps of my present life.
Good for me.
I did something productive (other than work)
Happy day.
Good day.
Got paid.
Money comin' my way
Have to go for a dress fitting...I'm in a wedding. I'm a bride's maid...oh goodness...at least the dress is red! (No, I didn't push my color on someone, they picked it b/c they rock, oh yes)

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you are a little plastic castle sitting ontop of
your head.
Most likely you don't care.
You're loveable and cuddly but a little bit mad.


which Ani DiFranco hairstyle are YOU?
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hmmm...not my first pick but I guess it fits so I can't ditch it...

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http://www.guardian.co.uk/life/interview/story/0,12982,1017904,00.html

Go to that addy, John? This is for dude from Cyb Lan (that's what it's called,right?) Anyway,here is an article on what we were talking about.

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How do I change my mood thingy?

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